Monday, October 18, 2010

THE END( happy ending like any other fairy tale ???)

Hye guys...the continuation of the story rght? haha....hmmmm......


The girl is still hurting.....day by day that awful feeling eats her inside.....she felt her heart's been ripped apart.....she didnt feel like her usual cheerful self.... bt she have to show to the world that shes okay....that she is juz fine....if she didnt do dat,all her frens will hate her....they'd think shes juz a burden to them.......n she dont want that to happen.....bt hw can she......."I am tryin to b happy,wearing a smile....bt its too painful inside..."...

Nonetheless ,she bear all the pain...she keep saying to herself.......that ....'hes actually a nice guy....that he didnt mean to do dat to her....that hes hurt as well....'...she kept lyin to herself....hurting herself.... at the same time.....accepting n bearing the pain she's goin through....

One day, the guy tried to chat with her on fb...after so long having the 'cold' attitude towards each other they finally talk.....bt the girl is too hurt to bear the pain anymore.......instead of feeling excited like she usually was whenever they talk....she didnt feel anything ,when talking to him.... .in her mind,"Ive decided to give up on you"........bt the guy still want them to b frens.....the guy still wants the girl to b there 4 him......bt the girls heart is still nt healed....n still hurt to even think ....''Y cant he understand wat im going through?''.....still... the guy want them to b frens...he even asked for them to meet....'to clear everything up' as he said....at first that girl didnt agree with tht....somehw..she felt afraid to see him.....(she still didnt knw y ..till nw..)...dats strange...did she still have feelings 4 him???Then.......the guy said sthing tht make the girl's feelings for him came rushing back to her...her care 4 him even doubled as she hear his story.....somehw she felt concerned abt him after knwing wat he has gone through......for a while there she didnt care of her hurt.....bt wat she truly wants rght at dat time is to say sthin to comfort him instead... The girl even agreed for them to meet.....bt she didnt knw wats coming her way though.....

The next day after, her feelings of hurt came back to her...the pain she felt inside her .....only GOD knws......she remember everything abt him hurting her...suddenly she felt dat she cant face him ...again... she tried to cancel it with him ..bt then again , she felt like the meet is important for them.... so she gather her courage to say 'yes' to him back again.....bt wat she didnt knw is dat the guy is nt the same guy who asked for them to meet anymore....

She didnt knw wat might happen on that 'historic' day...she feel afraid......to knw the truth.....bt still ...she believe in him.....she gather all her courage....in her wait for dat day to come......theres a possibility dat dat day will hurt her...FOREVER...bt still she BELIEVE in him...somehw she still thinks hes a nice kind-hearted guy she once knew...............bt dat day.......HURT her more than ever instead....he did nt even come! ....


PS:She didnt knw wat love truly means bt wat she did knw tho is dat every lil story on9 abt heartbreak ....n the quotes....somehow.... its the same as wat WAS in her heart.....


Well ....i do not want to explain it any further....so its u guys to decide nw....do u think the girl will forgive that guy n bear all the pain again? or do u think it juz end rght there?wat do u guys think? This is the end though.......hope u guys enjoyed it...:)



Thursday, October 7, 2010

TELL Me why....

what should i do? what should i feel rght nw? i hurt him..im selfish...its only me whos not hurt...bt he is?i wanna cry! i wanna express myself wholly so that all the pain wud go away! i want to 4get this pain...n juz b his fren too! juz like wat he want me to do!

he said he need me....he said he want me to b by his side......to help him b a good person.....hw can i do dat if im nt my usual self anymore?????!!!!hw can i b myself when everytime i look at him my heart skipped a beat,everytime someone text me i hope it was him, everytime i talk to him i feel myself blushed, everytime when its time to switch off the light i remember him.....n everytime i woke up i asked myself wat is he doing today?.....hw can i b my usual self with him as he wantd me to b (as his FREN only) if i cant control my feelings 4 him anymore...

he didnt knw hw much it hurts me......he said im selfish? hw can i b selfish when all dis time i want to b by his side as wat he always wantd bt actually inside myself my heart is ripped apart??? till i cant hold on any longer.....

hw can i ....

i knw.....its my own damn fault to feel this way towards him....i should b juz frens with him back then...shudnt have let him confessed to me..should have stay by my principle...'to not let any guy hurt me'....

is it my fault for hurting him as he said......cant he understand dat im hurt too????hw can i b selfish...when all the time ...i always think of his well being???

please God.....help me forget my feelings for him.......so dat every1 will b happy....juz as he will when he sees "I'M HIS USUAL FREN BACK..."




Tuesday, October 5, 2010

ONCE UPON A TIME...

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”



Once upon time....there lived a girl who's so cheerful and happy ...she's surrounded by a family who love and care so much abt her.. ...n real frens who share everything with her...sadness ..n happiness....bt this girl also has a teenage problem like every other teenage girls....

   

    Its nw her first year in faculty....she got a place in the university that her father dreamed of goin b4 she was born! imagine wat it wud b like to have made her father so happy n proud of herself.....she's so happy too that she fulfilled her dad's wish again....she can't believe she got a place there...what with all that had happened between her n sum1 special to her back then(during that fnal exam).. n guess what?he is there too rght nw..the same faculty as hers though different course...n wat's more shocking is dat....dat person came back to her...she said she missed her.....so much.....n she misses him too.....though it hurts back then ,she cant seem to 4get abt him too...n she cant seem to accept any1 else...she juz didnt knw y..

     Days turn to week n week turns to months...their relationship became better...though they fight all the time..it usually end with a sweet ending... he cares so much abt her...he is nt as harsh as back then anymore....always try to b a gud 'fren' to her...(ya...they're juz frens...bt it's a relationship of a fren who care so much abt each other...u can call it 'LOVE' if u want though...coz actually there's no such thing as friendship like dat huh >.<) well anyway....they began to learn hw to tolerate n never get into a serious fight lik b4 anymore.....everything is ...beautiful...

     Bt then one day,sthing happen...his 'wing' came back....after she vanished for abt a year she finally came back...u can imagine hw happy he is at that time....bt 4 her? she has a sudden feeling dat things arent goin to b the same anymore....n she's rght....it turns out he owed his soul to her....he care so much abt her too....everything felt different after dat...she always think badly of him...she doesnt feel special to him anymore.....slowly the feeling eats her inside......

    But she knows there's no use 4 her to feel that way.....what she feels is exactly the same as this kagome person...it felt weird though....its nt after she watch this video that she felt this way..bt she felt it b4 she watched it...

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  Though she felt mad at that girl...she cant hate her....so she decided to cast away all her bad feelings abt dat girl..n apologized 4 having such feelings towards her... 

     Soon ,they both become frens.....that guy's 'wing' n her.....she realized that dat girl is actually a nice girl... bt every1 have their own problem in their lives .....that girl has it too...It's even weirder though...that she felt like dat girl is sum1 she knws since b4 she met her...they become really close....n that special person is actually happy dat they're both becoming so close too..... 

    But then again....no one knows what she actually felt.....she's happy wth dat girl....bt at the same time...she felt hurt  too...knwing dat dat girl actually knws that special person to her better than she did.. slowly....the feelings took her happiness away frm her.....again.....she's hurt.....bt she dont knw hw to react...

    It became worse though...when that guy felt confused of what he actually felt between dat girl and herself...he said he cant love....bt y is it dat he came after her b4 dat girl appeared....y is he saying he loves her over n over again till she actually fall 4 him? wat does he mean by staying by his side...bt he cant love like b4 anymore??....it hurts..........she misses the guy behind dat person....the guy she met b4 she knws dat girl....

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"I miss you not because you’re gone but because things between us aren’t the way they used to be"

     What he said to her is exactly the same as what inuyasha said to Kagome....it's the same! Bt hes nt inuyasha rght.....if he's inuyasha he'll realize dat wat he did rght nw hurts..he didnt knw ....dat....."It’s so damn hard to show everyone that I’m doing just fine without you when deep down inside I’m not. What’s worse is I have to smile when I can barely hold back my tears because as far as I can see, you’re doing fine without me."

PS: I did this especially 4 u...so that u'll understand wat i really felt... i dont usually do dis sort of things...'blogging' i mean...i juz want u to knw what i truly felt....after dis i promised i'll b A gud FRIEND to u....i wont bring up this topic again....at least nw the burden is lifted...after this u'll see the 'fren' inside me...looking forward to having fun like back in PASUM :)