ONCE UPON A TIME...

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Once upon time....there lived a girl who's so cheerful and happy ...she's surrounded by a family who love and care so much abt her.. ...n real frens who share everything with her...sadness ..n happiness....bt this girl also has a teenage problem like every other teenage girls....

   

    Its nw her first year in faculty....she got a place in the university that her father dreamed of goin b4 she was born! imagine wat it wud b like to have made her father so happy n proud of herself.....she's so happy too that she fulfilled her dad's wish again....she can't believe she got a place there...what with all that had happened between her n sum1 special to her back then(during that fnal exam).. n guess what?he is there too rght nw..the same faculty as hers though different course...n wat's more shocking is dat....dat person came back to her...she said she missed her.....so much.....n she misses him too.....though it hurts back then ,she cant seem to 4get abt him too...n she cant seem to accept any1 else...she juz didnt knw y..

     Days turn to week n week turns to months...their relationship became better...though they fight all the time..it usually end with a sweet ending... he cares so much abt her...he is nt as harsh as back then anymore....always try to b a gud 'fren' to her...(ya...they're juz frens...bt it's a relationship of a fren who care so much abt each other...u can call it 'LOVE' if u want though...coz actually there's no such thing as friendship like dat huh >.<) well anyway....they began to learn hw to tolerate n never get into a serious fight lik b4 anymore.....everything is ...beautiful...

     Bt then one day,sthing happen...his 'wing' came back....after she vanished for abt a year she finally came back...u can imagine hw happy he is at that time....bt 4 her? she has a sudden feeling dat things arent goin to b the same anymore....n she's rght....it turns out he owed his soul to her....he care so much abt her too....everything felt different after dat...she always think badly of him...she doesnt feel special to him anymore.....slowly the feeling eats her inside......

    But she knows there's no use 4 her to feel that way.....what she feels is exactly the same as this kagome person...it felt weird though....its nt after she watch this video that she felt this way..bt she felt it b4 she watched it...

  Though she felt mad at that girl...she cant hate her....so she decided to cast away all her bad feelings abt dat girl..n apologized 4 having such feelings towards her... 

     Soon ,they both become frens.....that guy's 'wing' n her.....she realized that dat girl is actually a nice girl... bt every1 have their own problem in their lives .....that girl has it too...It's even weirder though...that she felt like dat girl is sum1 she knws since b4 she met her...they become really close....n that special person is actually happy dat they're both becoming so close too..... 

    But then again....no one knows what she actually felt.....she's happy wth dat girl....bt at the same time...she felt hurt  too...knwing dat dat girl actually knws that special person to her better than she did.. slowly....the feelings took her happiness away frm her.....again.....she's hurt.....bt she dont knw hw to react...

    It became worse though...when that guy felt confused of what he actually felt between dat girl and herself...he said he cant love....bt y is it dat he came after her b4 dat girl appeared....y is he saying he loves her over n over again till she actually fall 4 him? wat does he mean by staying by his side...bt he cant love like b4 anymore??....it hurts..........she misses the guy behind dat person....the guy she met b4 she knws dat girl....

"I miss you not because you’re gone but because things between us aren’t the way they used to be"

     What he said to her is exactly the same as what inuyasha said to Kagome....it's the same! Bt hes nt inuyasha rght.....if he's inuyasha he'll realize dat wat he did rght nw hurts..he didnt knw ....dat....."It’s so damn hard to show everyone that I’m doing just fine without you when deep down inside I’m not. What’s worse is I have to smile when I can barely hold back my tears because as far as I can see, you’re doing fine without me."

PS: I did this especially 4 u...so that u'll understand wat i really felt... i dont usually do dis sort of things...'blogging' i mean...i juz want u to knw what i truly felt....after dis i promised i'll b A gud FRIEND to u....i wont bring up this topic again....at least nw the burden is lifted...after this u'll see the 'fren' inside me...looking forward to having fun like back in PASUM :)